Sunday, November 15, 2009

On the move again


So the count down begins...I now have officially two weeks to pack my life into boxes and to say my good byes.

Yes, we are on the move again. This is not such a huge thing as we both like to roam this planet and are now pretty good at the whole moving thing, but this is the first time we will be doing it with the little one so I am experiencing a whole bunch of new feelings and sensations this time round..... I just can't name them because I have moved into my NUMB zone!!

This is the space I fall into when it all gets too much!
I switch off, feel nothing and don't do much....With such a short time left until we leave and with still so much to do, I am there, I am NUMB.

There is a lot happening in my world right now and there are choices to be made but when I am in this numb space, decision making is pretty difficult to say the least.

The biggest choice we have to make is where we are going to live...
City??
Country??
UK??
Germany??
Asia??

Too many choices maybe???
Normally my hubby and I are both pretty in tune and when things present themselves to us, we generally go with what feels right but this time, we are both not feeling much!
We have our tickets out of OZ and we are holidaying for the first few weeks, but then.....

Maybe we are supposed to experience this floating space...this stillness.
Maybe we are supposed to develop more trust.
Maybe we are supposed to stop trying to control, to figure out and to know.

Whatever the lesson is, the boxes are still sitting empty in the spare room...
The clothes still need to be sorted, winter clothes need to be bought, cleaning needs to be done...

Two weeks to go!!!!

I will keep you posted :)

3 comments:

  1. I so get the numbness....I often do the same thing...until something opens up, a realization, option.

    This sounds so exciting though! Are you moving simply because it is time to go?

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  2. Cypress sun...It is exciting, although a little daunting too this time around! Things are just a bit stale here for us in many areas...we are really looking for community and are after a certain lifestyle we haven't managed to achieve here as yet, so whilst the bub is still little, we thought it was a good time to explore and see if we can find our place.

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  3. I admire this! We are in a similar situation, but there are beautiful things that tie us to this place we live.

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